Depression is one of those things that can strike at any time. You never know when or where it's going to rear it's ugly head. It doesn't matter if you are at home or at work, on vacation or at the mall. It doesn't matter what time of the day or night it might be.
Depression isn't always the same. it can creepy up slowly, bring you down deeper and deeper everyday. Or it can come out of nowhere and slap you upside the head causing a downward spiral. It can last for a few hours, a day, a week, a month - you never know.
Depression doesn't always have a reason that you can understand. Sometimes it does, there are lots of things, stress, illness, death, etc, that could trigger a period of depression. But sometimes you find yourself in that deep dark hole and have no idea why you are there.
Depression can hit you in so many different ways. It can make you sad, like sit in a corner and cry all day kind of sad. It can make you angry, like explode at everyone who looks at you kind of angry. It can make you not care, like the world could come falling down around you and you just shrug your shoulders. It can make you clueless, like so clueless that you don't even notice that you are being miserable to everyone around you. It can make you self absorbed to the point where you don't care that the guy in front of you slammed on his brakes to avoid hitting a child, all that you care about is that your purse fell on the floor and spilled when you hit your brakes to avoid hitting him. It can make you withdrawn to the point where all you want to do is stay in bed.
Depression effects EVERYTHING - your family, your friends, your job, your pets, your home life, your social life. No one can tell you what to expect or how you are going to feel or react.
Depression is unpredictable. There is no one treatment that works for everyone. Life becomes a rollercoaster of medications, therapies and strategies to try and keep in control of your life. Some days it works, some days it doesn't.
Next time someone tells you that they suffer from depression, don't tell them that you know how they feel because you don't and you never will. Instead, ask them how they feel and LISTEN!
Even if you suffer from depression yourself, you don't know how they feel and you never will. You understand what it is like to live with this horrible mental illness not knowing when it is going to turn on you again, but nobody suffers the same way.
Depression is something different to everyone who suffers from it.
